Thinking & thinking & thinking....

many times toooo much thinking gets me in trouble....

i have never had any issues with anxiety or depression before but just thinking about "my list" is starting get me a bit nervous...i have an idea of what i need to get done before my surgery and then there is the list of what i WANT to get done...they dont always match you know....i just need to write it all down in order of importance and then that will be it....i need to get the kids party done and "over with" and then i'll feel better i think....i also have a list of stuff i want to BE done at the house while i'm home since i'm going to be there anyway....termite inspection and treatment, carpets cleaned upstairs, house either cleaned just before my surgery or while i'm home...i think i found a cheap recliner for the living room or bedroom depending on where i decide to be and will be checking it out and picking up hopefully this weekend....i'll get rid of it after if we dont want to keep it....i'm working out the drop off and pick up schedule for the kids and will definitely lean on friends and family to help mike out....luckily he has told his boss that i'm having surgery and he will be in late and/or leave early depending on what's up.....okay i feel a bit better writing it down....breathe denise, just breathe....