New Theme Song for My Journey going forward....

i just downloaded this song last week from itunes after hearing it on the radio a few times...i thought it had a catchy upbeat tune that would be good for cardio....well today it came up in my playlist and i actually replayed it like 3-4 times so i could really HEAR the words.....they moved me so much so that i almost started crying on my walk.....silly really but please check it out.....

FIREWORK by Katy Perry

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em goin "Oh, oh, oh!"

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

Getting & Staying Under 200

so i got under 200 on christmas day and had stayed there with a weight of 198.6 to end 2010.....UNTIL this past monday when i went back up to 205....i forgot to take my water pill on sunday and can retain anywhere from 4-6lbs in literally a DAY....it was discouraging but i pushed thru and really worked hard this week on mixing up my exercise (took 2 spin classes and a friend and i did our own spin class one night too), taking lunch time walks in addition to my night time scheduled exercise routine, sticking to my calories including eating some/most of my exercise calories and drinking drinking drinking my water......well last night i jumped on the scale 12 hrs early from my actual weigh in today and it was at 197.4 and i was very very happy....this morning i jumped on again for my "official" weigh in and was 196.4....i was sooooo happy to be back where i was 2 weeks ago when i TOOK my sick weight and logged it....then i jumped on one more time to send a pic to my sister and it said 196.2....i'm taking that weight and have put the scale away until next saturday's weigh in....I WILL NOT BE JUMPING ON THE SCALE THIS WEEK AT ALL........i know if i do the right things by working out and eating the right mix of foods and drinking my water, i can have ANOTHER loss next saturday at my weigh in......right now my goal is 189 by St. Patty's Day as i'm part of a thread challenge and that is our time frame....then the next big goal is 4th of July and i want to be at 173...then onto my 39th Bday (10/13) to be at 157.....next goal is New Year's 2012 to be under 150....then finally Valentine's 2012 i want to be working on Maintaining 145

i have my consultation with the plastic surgeon that did my breast reduction surgery in 2000 on monday to discuss where i should be in order to "consider" a tummy tuck.....this is a reward i am giving myself now that i am down below 200....i'm excited and nervous to hear what he has to say...honestly i never thought my tummy would go down in size but i am actually starting to notice it is getting smaller....i still think i'll need the tuck but we'll see what he says.....

New Year & Goals adjusted again....

so i realized that i have all these monthly goals and then each month on the 2nd saturday when i either make the goal, pass the goal or fall short of the goal i end up adjusting my numbers going forward every month until my final goal weight of 145.....

it's getting rather annoying....i'm looking back to when i really started tracking my goals and i have lost anywhere between 0 and 6 lbs between monthly weighins.....i have set my goal at losing 1 lb a week for a total of 4-5lbs a month depending on the number of weeks between the 2nd saturdays of each month....

someone suggested making "broader" goals to help with the fluctuation from month to month....sooooo, i have again adjusted my goals....i still have the monthly goals set up in my spreadsheet but am really trying to HIT these:

St. Patty's Day GOAL: 189 (64.8lbs lost)

4th of July GOAL: 173 (80.8lbs lost)

39th Bday (10/13) GOAL: 157 (96.8lbs lost)

New Year's 2012 GOAL: Under 150 (103.8lbs lost)

Valentine's 2012 GOAL: working on Maintaining 140-150 (103.8-113.8lbs lost)

not sure why i feel the need to constantly be adjusting and looking at future goals but i'm a numbers tracker so i like to see things in spreadsheets and if they just don't "add" up for me visually i have to "fix" them.....hope these more broad goals help me stay the course to being very close to completing this journey by this time next year....