Something I'm proud of.....

12/1 - today i ate my snacks and lunch as packed with no additional snacking at work.

12/2 - today i completed a 3 mile walk even though i ran so short on time i couldnt make it to the gym to work out due to errands after work - instead i did a walk from the jenny craig parking lot to the mall, 3 loops around the interior of the mall - THRU THE FOOD COURT 3 TIMES and back to my car at the jenny craig lot. when i got to my car i was only at 2.8 miles so i walked around the lot twice so i could complete 3 miles for today.....only stopped in the mall to pee once and to drop off and pick up my watch at the battery replacement place....

12/3 - today even though i was faced with a very stressful LENGTHY conversation with someone that i dont enjoy talking with anything about especially my kids and/or my life and choices i choose to come to work, not stop for crap food, eat my morning snack of oatmeal and 1/2 a granny smith apple and then my jenny craig lunch and a salad and this afternoon i will eat the other 1/2 of my apple and jenny craig pumpkin spice muffins and then i will go home and have chicken for dinner with my family....it's nice that i am changing the way i deal with stress.....eating well does not have to be a punishment - it actually is a wonderful reward that gets paid at the ENDDDDDDDD of the "day"....

12/4 - today i did 3 workouts - walked while the kids were at gymnastics, completed group step at the gym even though i am soooo uncoordinated and hated every minute of it, jumped on the treadmill to get more miles in only to find out that they were still going to hold the group power class that i absolutely love even though it wasn't on the schedule for saturday's at 11 until after the holidays...i felt so awesome - burned 940 calories with my 3 workouts...

12/5 - today even though i was at the mall at lunch time while doing some christmas shopping i chose a subway sandwich for my lunch...

12/6 - today even though my 3yr old daughter ended up coming to work with me for the day due to vomitting in the early morning hours and was not quick to go back to sleep - hence i was really really tired, i still went for a 3.25 mile walk in the 55degree weather pushing her in the stroller after work....

12/7 - today even though i dinner planned out i ended up taking the kids to denny's for kids eat free so my husband could work (he works from home) uninterupted with kid noise and such...i reviewed the menu (which sucked by the way) and looked online at the nutritional info on their site and MFP too...made a good choice and had the chicken cranberry salad and was very happy with my choice...no french fries, no greasy food, no junk....ohhhhhhhhhh, trust me i was soooo craving a cheesy mess or a burger or a buffalo chix sand or wings BUT i didn't, i made a conscious decision to eat a good meal with the calories i had available to me and i worked out twice today as well....

12/8 - today i did a two mile round trip walk from work to the grocery store to pick up a few things for bunco instead of driving there....

12/9 - today i planned out my meal choice for my mom's group dinner by researching the restaurant's dinner menu online; i chose grilled mahimahi, steamed rice and steamed veggies and entered it into my food diary right then; then i went to the gym right after work & burned 382 calories which put me right where i needed to be if i ordered what i planned on; at the restaurant i ordered what i planned plus a cup of tomato bisque soup - 185 calories and a cappuccino - 150 calories for present time. ALL 5 OTHER GIRLS ORDERED SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thai pizza, chicken pot pie (a whole friggin pie, i am not kidding), orange peel chicken, Mediterranean sandwich with fries, chinese chicken w/noodles...when i told them what i was ordering they were like, "wellI'M NOT BEING GOOD, i'm definitely getting whatever i want and damned the calories pretty much...i was VERY PROUD OF MYSELF for making a "good choice" but not having to "suffer" because of it....it was delicious and just what i wanted....no sacrifice....

12/10 - today i went for a 2.6 mile walk in the time i had after dropping my son off at school until his holiday concert....i knew i wouldnt have time later to do my walk so i used my time wisely.....

12/11- today even though i knew i was going to be WAY over on my calories i still choice to "squeeze" in a 45 min walk on the treadmill even though time was tight with all we had planned and it didnt even make a dent in my deficit for the day.....i still make working out a priority because that is why/how i am changing my life....making better choices when i can and sticking to it even when i don't.....

12/12 - today we went out to lunch and i didnt have a "healthy option" BUT i still logged the foods i ate...tomorrow is a new day...

12/13 - today i did a 3.33 mile walk during my "lunch" break even though with the wind blowing here in "SUNNY" florida it was like 50 degrees with the WIND whipping off the water....i got my "burn" on and stayed within my calories for the day once my exercise was recorded....

12/14 - today i made the choice to have a subway sandwich while my kids had happy meals at the mall....

12/15 - today i...oh what the heck am i proud of today??? well i guess i'm proud that i did group power and completed 2 miles on the treadmill at the gym to try to make up for the overage of baked BBQ chips i ate earlier in the day...was not able to balance out the overage but i gave it my best effort and sometimes that is all you can do....

12/16 - today i busted my ass to burn 300 calories on my lunch walk and instead i burned over 400 cals....yup i'm proud...

12/17 - today at my work luncheon i chose tomato soup, turkey sandwich and fruit salad...not a french fry in site.....oh and i played wii EA sports with my son for over an hour on my "rest" day and did a great 350+ calorie burn....

12/18 - today i walked in the rain with an umbrella while my kids were at gymnastics....i could have said screw it, i'll fit something in later but i didn't...got a nice 300+ calorie burn too...

12/19 - today i ate well for the morning and the afternoon even without a plan for the day.....not so happy about my night time eating when we got home but i wrote it down anyway and am only a little over my calories for the day....just water for the rest of the night....no heaven on a stick for me tonight :-)

12/20 - today even though i feel like shit AGAIN....i ate well all day and after the kids were in bed i did the leslie sansone walking 2 mile dvd for the first time and then level1 of the jillian michaels shred dvd....got a nice 300 calorie burn in just under an hour..

12/21 - today i am proud to say i weigh less than 200lbs....jumped on the scale when i got home and officially have entered onederland - 198.4lbs - never to see 200 again....

12/22 - today i'm proud to say that i have lost 25lbs since my last visit to my dr (march 2010) - when i jumped on the scale today for my sick visit the nurse started on the 150 notch and built up instead of the 200 notch....it felt absolutely amazing......i was grinning from ear to ear even though i have bronchitis and strep throat LOL

12/23 - today i had chinese takeout but chose to eat light as i was not feeling very well and didnt have the extra exercise calories to make up for the heavy meal....

12/24 - today i chose to eat a light lunch so i could enjoy christmas eve dinner with my family at my in laws house...had small serving of veggies, potato, ham and skipped the biscuits...

12/25 - today i ate a deliciously cooked christmas dinner and had one plate....just a small scoop of everything and i was satisfied....i made a light pie from hungry girl to bring to my cousin's house and i had probably 1/2 of a serving of that but marked the full serving anyway just to be safe....

12/26 - today i took the "day off" from life to recoup with my sick kids....

12/27 - today i did 3 sessions of netflix exercise workouts, a 5 mile walk and ran around the playground with the kids for 20 mins....burned over 800 calories....

12/28 - today i walked 5 miles while i waited for my car to be serviced instead of just sitting in the waiting room...

12/29 - today i stayed on course even though i had a very stressful day (rear ended the vehicle in front of me coming off I95...

12/30 - today i tried a different chinese takeout dish but still choose healthy - not fried or battered or heavy sauced...

12/31 - today i pushed myself to finish my 75 mile move my ass challenge for december.....very proud of myself...

Compliments & Getting Closer to the "End".......

well i'm actually starting to get used to accepting compliments.....i have never been good at it but with all the attention i have been getting lately with how much i have lost and mostly in the recent last few weeks it has become really noticable i guess.....my mom was telling me yesterday that at my aunt's house the night before (i was not there) they were all talking about how great i looked at thanksgiving and since then and how much i had lost....my mother and father in law are telling me to slow down and that they didnt think i was big before....i had to dig out my 260lb picture to show my mother in law just where i started at my heaviest....she was like well i didnt see you that way, i just saw your beautiful hair and your beautiful face and your kindness on the inside...i was like well that's nice but i had a huge fat ass right in front of you too LOL....and that beautiful face was round and full like a melon.....

anyway, i'm learning to accept the compliments and comments on the positive side and just state that i have lost "X" lbs since i started and not tagging on that i still need to lose "X" lbs by the time i'm done....i am celebrating with them my successes and recognizing that every pound i lose i am losing forever....i am officially into the 190s this entire week and am not going back above 200 ever again....i'm going to continue on in this process i seem to have "figured out" - eat right, exercise, log my foods, drink my water.... AND GET down into the 180s and then the 170s and then the 160s and then the 150s and then the 140s....we'll see what happens when i get closer...i honestly didnt see a light at the end of the tunnel but now i am starting to....i think getting over the 1/2 way hump has helped....i am now on the 2nd half of my journey and it's all downhill, in a good way, from here...

ONEDERLAND so nice to see you....

so i decided to jump on the scale last night when i came home from work cause i have been so diligent with food and exercise since my weigh in this past saturday when i hit 200.....

so last night, first the scale said 199.6 and i was like yeah baby under 200 let's check one more time and i jumped off and on again and it said 198.4 and i was like woooohoooooo let's just make sure so of course i jumped off and on like 10 more times and it stayed at 198.4 so i am officially now under 200 lbs and will be adjusting my monthly goals going forward accordingly into the new year until i have the rest of this weight off...i am officially 1lb over my halfway mark to 145...55.4 lbs gone since january 2008....feels pretty damn awesome and the best is yet to come....

Onederland....sooooo close I can taste it...

So i have been trying to get to 199 since i started my journey on 1/1/08...it was my goal that first year to lose 54.8lbs....a lofty goal but i was fresh off having my second child and really going gang busters...or so i thought...anyway, i didnt make 199 by 12/31/08 but i did lose 23 or so lbs - ending the year at about 231lbs...

i continued on and in 2009 lost 7 more lbs even though my goal was to still get to 199 sometime that year.....i ended 2009 at around 224lbs....

i still continued on into 2010 and have to date lost 24lbs more....I AM GOING TO MAKE 199 before 12/31/10.....i currently weigh 200 and I WILL be 199 by this saturday...I AM GOING TO MAKE THIS GOAL I HAVE HAD FOR ALMOST 3 YEARS.....

Then when 2011 starts i will firmly be in onederland and will continue to go down down down.....and i can visit the plastic surgeon who did my breast reduction in 2000 to discuss the tummy tuck i have always wanted even before having 2 kids....

i was looking back at my weight records and here are some numbers that show how far i have come....

my first adult weight memory is 210lbs in april 2000 when i met my husband...

one year later i was up to 245lbs after being in a blissfully happy relationship...

i immediately went to WW and lost 55lbs in 15 months ending up at 190.5lbs by oct 2002..this is the lowest i have any record of in my adult life....

when i got married in nov 2003 i was around 214lbs.....

when i delivered my son in sept 2004 i was 263 lbs....

after seeing pictures of myself at my son's 1st birthday party in sept 2005 weighing 260lbs i immediately joined Jenny Craig with a friend and got down to 206.6 by oct 2006....

in jan 2007 right before i found out i was preggers with my daughter i weighed 211.4lbs and 6wks post partum in oct 2007 i weighed 247.2lbs....

of course this brings me back to the start of my journey on 1/1/08 at 253.8lbs....

up down up down up down from 2000-2007 officially stopped on 1/1/08....i am only going to continue going down down down now that i am on this journey to change my life for good......i'm not on a diet - i'm here to change my life so that i am a healthy mom for my kids and as i keep losing weight with this new healthy lifestyle i'm cherishing the smaller numbers and the smaller me....

New goals....adjustments are part of life...

so i moved my monthly goal weigh in to the 2nd saturday of the month because every first saturday i was missing my mark even though the saturday before i was right on track...seems even my "non" period affects my body so i made the adjustment...had a goal of 199 for December 11th and was right there the week before at 201 BUT then something happened and i was back up to 204...i have now readjusted my goal for 199 by December 25th and then each 2nd saturday going forward accordingly....

here are my goals for the upcoming months....looking for a loss of only 1lb a week...i can do this and i will.....

12/25/10 - 199 - finally below 200...make an appt to see the plastic surgeon who did my breast reduction in 2000 to discuss what i should do and where i should be to consider getting the tummy tuck i have always wanted....not necessarily doing the surgery anytime soon, i have just always wanted to see how much of the work i need to complete before doing it....this has been my ULTIMATE goal since i started this journey in january 2008.....

1/8/11 - 197 - firmly in the 100s - still going down baby

2/12/11 - 192 - inching my way closer to the 180s....

3/12/11 - 188 - out of the 190s and safely into the 180s.....my kids have never seen me this small that they would remember...i got down to 187??? when i was on Jenny Craig 2 yrs after having my son but didnt stay there very long and he was under 2 so he doesnt remember that mom...

4/9/10 - 184 - securing my spot as the skiniest i have been since my "adult" life began...i made it to the high 180s when i did jenny craig and/or WW sometime in the last 10 years but i obviously didnt stay there very long...this will be the absolute smallest my husband has ever seen me...

5/14/11 - 179 - yup bye bye 180s - hello - 170s....truly the smallest i have been since early 20s late teens????

6/11/11 - 175 - wow i'm actually gonna be in the mid 170s by the time summer rolls around!!!! i will also officially be only OVERWEIGHT..no longer OBESE according to the bmi calculator...

7/9/11 - 171 - low 170s for our trip to maine???? my sister hasnt seen me that small in forever....

8/13/11 - 166 - down into the 160s by the time my son heads back to school to start 1st grade...

9/10/11 - 162 - firmly set in the low 160s

10/8/11 - 158 - happy early birthday to me - you are now in the 150s - wooohooo girl.....almost 100lbs lost since you started this journey...

11/12/11 - 154 - a week or so after my 8th wedding aniversary and i'll weigh 60lbs less than my wedding day....that will feel amazing...officially 99.87lbs GONE forever...

12/10/11 - 150 - yeah i think i might have been in middle school when i weighed this?? maybe early high school....

1/14/12 - 145 - so i had my jaw wired shut when i was a junior in high school as part of my orthodontia....i lost 30+/-lbs in 10wks because of it...i think i ended up at 145???? the memory is fuzzy but that weight sticks in my head...regardless i only got there cause of circumstance and not hard work....sooooo this time when i start the new year in 2012 it will be ALL ME.....this would put me right at the high end of the "HEALTHY" BMI range....i would be out of the obese and overweight categories forever....

2/11/12 - 140-150 - working on maintenance - i believe my ultimate goal is to have a 10 pound range of weight that i am comfortable at...i will continue to workout and eat right and work very hard toward maintaining my HEALTHY new life...

Love New Days - don't mind "Bad Ones" either cause they make you think...

several people have recently complimented me and called me inspiring because of the changes i have made in my life....

funny thing is, yesterday i had an "epic failure" with eating....BUT today i know that i'll start the day fresh with 1470 calories in the jar and then add more when i work out later depending on what i do today....

i'm not killing myself feeling guilty, i'm not angry at myslef for eating too much or the wrong things...i even wrote down all that i could find cals for and then did a BIG estimation on my chinese takeout....

when i closed my day it said if i ate like that everyday, i would be 20lbs heavier in 5 weeks....

first i was stunned and then angry to see that "number" and then resigned to the fact that it was just ONE DAY....

it is not who i am now...it is not who i will ever be again....
i am a different person now and if i have to eat like shit every once in a while to make me "remember" what i'm doing and where i'm tring to get, then sooo bit it....

TODAY is a new day...no trying to make up for yesterday....it is gone...today is a new start....

Adjusted GOALS......

okay so in june i was all set with goals and "realized" i could get to 160 whenever it was lol....seriously i keep setting goals i just can not reach......i have had the same goal of 199 since i started this journey in january 2008 at 253.4.....i wanted to be at 199 by december 2008 and then it moved to may 2009 and then december 2009 and here we are in august 2010 and i still weigh 216.6....grrrrrrrr......soooooooo after some serious number crunching and spreadsheet adjusting, i'm finally on the right path.....

i will not look past the first saturday of each month.....right now - i just want to be at 213 by 9/4/10......i was 216.6 on 8/21/10 so in 14 days there is absolutely no REASON why i can not get there with "ONLY" 3.6lbs to lose....
new goals going forward from september....7lbs a month ant then 6lbs and then 5lbs and then 4lbs.....each few months readjusting as my damn body resists and fights the losses.....when i did on paper, an excell spreadsheet actually, i realized with all the adjusting, i could actually LOSE 100lbs total by the first saturday of september 2011....do i need or want to lose 100lbs???? oh, i'm sure i do and it is awesome to see it on paper but for right now, i just need to stay the course until september 4th and SEE 213 on the scale.....i will be successful this month, i will have the loss i am looking for because I CAN DO IT...it's easy, i know what to do, i'm doing it actually, i'm just not trying hard enough....little slips, little snacks, little bites, less effort......Turn it around girl, get your drive back...you can do this, you track your food, you cook healthy, you drink water, you work out....you just need to push yourself harder.....yup.....
9/4/10 - 213
i can do this......next month is next month......this is the now i need....just get to 213.....putting up reminder notes everywhere with 9/4 - 213.....see it do it be it.....

INSPIRATION???

WOWWWWWW....seriously that is all i can say right now is wow...

well i'll say more now LOL but yesterday and today have been very, hmmmm, what's the word i'm looking for????

heartwarming??? motivating??? enlightening???

when i began this journey in jan 2008 when my daughter was just 4 months old it was for ME.....

when i began my yahoo biggest loser group it was again for ME but also to get some others motivated in order to help me stay on track....

when i began the 2nd session of the biggest loser it was just to keep going and so on and so forth....

well now in june 2010 i'm still on my journey and NOW i'm inspiring, i'm motivating, i'm making other people want to change their lives????

seriously, i knew that i was rubbing off on others in the past especially with the biggest loser groups, BUT after all the amazingly supportive comments and thoughts from my GOALS blog here, facebook and email i am in awe of how wonderful the people i have chosen to surround myself with are....

not joking, i have heard from no less than a dozen people in the last 24 hrs about how my goals are making them want to better themselves..

that i'm "inspiring ", that i'm doing "fantastic", how they "need to get motivated", that i'm "kicking ass and should be proud", that i make people "want to stay on track"...

this was never my intent but by goodness if that is what is happening than so be it...it is my responsibility to my "fans" LOL to do well and continue on this journey until i reach the "finish" line wherever that may be and stay there to party until the end of time....

i seriously am soooooo excited to have ALL these people behind me or better yet, right beside me on this journey....please come on over and stay awhile, cause i ain't going anywhere unless it is DOWN DOWN DOWN baby...you are all welcome to hop on board, there's plenty of room (cause i'm getting skinnier LOL)

denise

Goals....Reflection...

REFLECTION...
so i posted about goals this morning on my exercise/food tracker website and then i started thinking about looking at pictures and decided today to update the pics on my "weightloss" blog as well as add my goals here....seriously, i was HUGE at 260 in september 2005 and now even at 217.6 in june 2010 i feel amazing...i'm going to take some "body" shots and post them in order for me to SEEEEEE the progress......i know it's there i just can't see it, silly me....

GOALS....
I just set 2lb weekly goals in my calendar – actually marked off the first Saturday of each month on the calendar to show 2lbs lost per week thru the end of this year….by January 1st if I can maintain 2lbs a week, I will be down another…..drumroll please…………..56lbs….160 – seriously?? Shut up?????? Is that even possible??? Right now that is my goal and as I lose or maintain I’ll adjust but I’m feeling good about 2lbs a week as long as I continue on the path of 5-6 days of working out, 1200 calories plus eating ½ to all of the workout calories I earn to put me right around 1500-1800 calories a day….i can do this right????

Tell me I can and then push my ass to do it….i’m serious….160 by 1/1/11….that would be amazing…..more than I ever dreamed of….even being 180 which is about 23lbs away and 1lb a week would be awesome….

Push me push me push me please…..i need the support and motivation to keep going….anyone want to jump in and get busy, let me know…I’m all about sharing the motivation.....

a friend suggested small goals since january is soooo far away, i have those too....
2lbs a week for now.
@ 215 2 new pairs of flip-flops.
@ 205 a new purse.
@ 199 a massage. (that is a huge milestone for me)
190 by labor day (challenge goal - may or may not make it but I'm part of a group trying to lose 30lbs by labor day so I'm really gonna kick it to get there)
185 by my 38th birthday 10/13
160 by 1/1/11 is a very long off goal that I will adjust accordingly as the weeks pass. As long as I stay the course and consistently lose and don't yoyo I'm fine with that. This is how I want to be for the rest of my life. I love the way I feel but honestly I don't SEE the changes in my body. I need to get out pics and really looook at myself now. I know I'm smaller cause I'm finally able to wear my 14-16s and have soooo many more clothes to wear which is very exciting.
I just don't SEE the change.

Power baby power...

so i did it, i got up at 535 this morning and made it to the group power class at my gym at 6am....after lifting, sweating and moving for 60 mins i headed home to start my day with my family and get out the door in plenty of time....my goal is to get to tues and fri 6am group power class each week in addition to the thurs night, friday afternoon, saturday morning and sunday morning workouts, i'll have 5-6 in each week for sure....
might try hitting a spin class on mon or thurs at 6am once a week too, but we'll see how i do getting the 2 early morning power classes done...
it felt great to get there on time and get that work out DONE for the day...i am not a morning person but i still felt awesome and still do....just gotta keep it up...

TADA, i'm out of the 220s....

woohooooo, i broke out of the 220s at this past saturday's weigh in with 219.8...im officially in the 210s....it feels good overall but mostly because i feel like i'm really not going back into the 220s even though i am at 219.8....even though i'm only .2 out of the 220s i'm feeling soooo good about my progress and my goals for this week, i know success is around the corner....i'm about 5lbs away from my wedding weight over 6 1/2 years ago and when i hit the 200s i'll be on cloud nine and then watch out people, i'll be in the 100s :) well 190s and then 180s and so on BUT no longer the 200s....

10 years of struggles....

I have been heavy all my life from what I remember, pictures show me small as a child, but during my teen years I remember always being bigger than all my friends. Of course never as big as I am now....

In April 2000, I met my now husband. I was 210 lbs but quickly settled into "I'm in love and I don't have to work to find a man mode" and shot up to 245 lbs during our first together....

In May 2001, I joined weight watchers and was very diligent in working on getting the weight back off….

In November 2003, when we were married I was down to around 213 lbs…

In September 2004 When I had my son I was 260 lbs but blamed it on being pregnant for the first time. Being home for 14 weeks with him and struggling to nurse I lost the “baby” weight and got into the 240s but then started eating it right back on and by the time he had his first birthday in September 2005, I weighed 263 lbs, more than I did when he was born 1 year before.

In September 2005, I joined jenny craig with a girlfriend right after his birthday and I got down to 209 lbs by his second birthday in September 2006.

In January 2007, I got pregnant with my daughter and when I delivered her in September 2007 I was back up over 250 lbs again....

In January 2008, I started all over again at 253.8 lbs and set up new goals for exercising and counting calories and worked really hard but I just kept losing my motivation.

In November 2008, I formed a yahoo biggest loser group with a few of my friends and we had a friendly $20 competition to see who could be the biggest loser in 12 weeks. When we started I was 236.6 lbs and by February 2009 I was down to 220 lbs - I wasn't the biggest loser but I was happy and we started another 12 week session right away.

In May 2009, when our second session ended I had only gone down to 216.6 lbs and was quite disappointed.

We talked about doing another session over the summer but there wasn’t a lot of “chatter”….a friend from the group completed the Disney half marathon in January 2009 and I thought that was an awesome goal so I signed myself up for the 2010 race and started doing some “running/walking” training.

In August 2009, I started a more strict running plan and was exercising about 4-5 times a week…..I was at the gym, I was running outside after work and loving it.

In December 2009, we started a third session of the biggest loser and by then I was back up to 224.6 lbs. I knew I had the half marathon in January and just had to keep on trucking.

The week of the half marathon I weighed 224lbs BUT I completed the race in 3 hrs and 27 mins and was extremely proud of myself. With 1 stop for a picture at the castle and 1 stop to pee at the pirates of the Caribbean, I had completed a half marathon in just under 16 minutes per mile…my regular running pace had been just around 15 mins per mile while I trained but I had to pee and have my picture taken to save the memory, what could I do….I wasn’t sure about signing up for the Disney princess half marathon in March 2010. Several of my girlfriends were doing it but I just didn’t have the money to spend so close to the January trip to Disney (we live in Florida but it is still expensive for a family of 4 to trek off to Disney for a long weekend).

I ended up not signing up but continued to run about 3 days a week starting a new training program to work on building up my pace and endurance. In the last few weeks I have fallen off track due to my son’s new tball schedule and myself being sick with a cold….

I bought the Jillian Michaels 30 day Shred DVD over a month ago and finally opened it and have completed 4 days in a row since Saturday…..I jumped on the scale Saturday and was up to 228.1 lbs…definitely lit a fire under my ass since I had been “maintaining” between 220-225….I’m back to using myfitnesspal to track my food and my goal this time is to finally get below 200….199 by the first week of July for my 20 yr High School Class Reunion…..it is a pretty big goal but I think it is manageable…..I’ve asked the girls if they want to start another round of biggest loser since the third one pretty much petered out after a few weeks with no chatter, no weight or exercise reporting….this time instead of putting in money we are talking about a few hours of babysitting to the biggest loser from each of the other non biggest losers……nothing is set up yet but this is my newest plan….doing the shred DVD for 30 days straight and getting in other exercise at least 3 other times during the week, tracking my food and getting in my waters, fruits, vegetables and dairy....i know balance in everything is best and that is what i'm trying to do this time...

I have never felt “skinny” but know I have looked good based on what others have said….I want to make a life time change for the better so that there is no more up and down and up and down…I have 2 kids, 5.5 and 2.5 and I want them to have active healthy lives so that they don’t have the struggles that I have experienced….keeping up with myself is my biggest goal and failure in the past…I want to be healthy and I want to stay that way….I want to be the SKINNY me I have always dreamed of….