stupid - stupid - stupid!!!!!!

GRRRRRRRRR
i just want to lose this weight but i dont want to do the work to get there....WTF????
how can i expect to lose weight if i dont do the work???? come on already...get your ass in gear....
you can do this...you are capable and you are worth it!!!!!!
let's start with a small goal this week....just get a loss - however small it may be....get down even just .2lbs.....
set small goals - 2 hrs of uninterupted sun time at the pool or maybe the beach when i get 5 lbs off from this point forward.....
i can do this.....
i can do this.........
i CAN do this......
53.8 by 12/31/08 this was and still is my goal, better get my ass in gear for that to happen - it is still possible if i just put my mind to it....

okay okay okay...now i'll start posting my food and activity so i can be accountable going forward - no more slipping backwards!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!