2018 is right around the corner!!!

So another year is starting and I’m still working on reaching my goal weight. That number has changed so many times over the years as I go up and down and back up again. I’m starting another year over 200 and it pissed me off. I know eating well and working out go hand and hand for me. I haven’t been pushing myself with workouts so I haven’t been eating well so I haven’t been pushing myself with workouts. It’s a vicious vicious cycle that must be broken.

So I joined a DietBet and a StepBet starting January 1st. I think I’m going to join a second DietBet to really put the pressure on. If I’m going to lose the weight I might as be in 2 challenges and reap the financial rewards when I win at the end of both!!!

I’m also thinking about paying for a membership at the  gym I go with Beth. Debating on doing lime membership so I can take 1 kid and go to any branch. It’s an extra $15 a month - not sure if it’s necessary but I like the idea of the kids being able to workout and going to any location. We’ll see. 

When I finally reach my goal weight, I want to get a small butterfly tattoo on my hip, so this is meant to happen in 2018 right??? Just look at the sign!!!!

Starting to panic a bit....

i'm at work and i'm planning on staying a bit later today (skipping the gym and my workout) to finish up 2 client billings and make sure all the accts are covered until i return to the office on 10/1 on top of the typical thursday money shuffle to cover payroll that comes out tonight....i dont think i'm going to finish both bills even if i push it and that pisses me off....

i havent been able to get out even for my little bit to finish the 2.58miles i left to finish my september goal...I AM NOT GOING TO STRESS ABOUT THOSE STUPID MILES....seriously i have got to put everything into perspective....

my mind is just reeling with everything and i just want this day to be over so i can go to the dr's office and have this surgery and be done and on my way to healing....the kids are all set for drop off at school by grampa and then with my friend kameron fri night and into sat....the recliner chair was delivered to my house today....

i just need to take a breathe and finish this work so i dont feel compelled to "rush" back to it next week even if it is remotely from my house....i know i'll be feeling better towards the end of the week and will be able to do the other bill if i dont finish it today and i just have to accept that...

i can only do what i can do.....

Wow, just 2 more sleeps...

How did this time go by so fast?
Just 2 more days until my surgery. Full days at work today and tomorrow preparing to be off all next week - client billings, trade checks cut, payroll covered for 2 weeks. Busy busy stuff.

I have printed out a living will and just need to have it witnessed by 2 people to make it official. I also need to dig out the will an attorney made up for us like 8 yrs ago that we never just finalized.

Lift chair is being delivered tomorrow and hopefully Amanda can meet them to accept the delivery so I don't have to run home.

Just keep breathing and believing that what I'm doing is the right thing for me and it is time.

It's really this week???

Oh. My. God.

it's really this week...in just 4 short days i am having my tummy tuck....i'm literally feeling uneasy in my stomach as i type these words.....today i printed out a living will and will execute before friday and provide to my surgeon for my file prior to my surgery....i am working on getting together a will that an attorney did up for mike and i a million years ago either when i was newly pregnant with nick or right after i had him...i never finalized it....i hate hate hate thinking about this kind of stuff but once i have it all complete, i'll never have to worry about it again.....i can move on and get back to my positive thinking because NOTHING is going to go wrong...

i'm going to have this surgery on friday morning...
i'm going to recover amazingly well because i'm just awesome that way...
i'm going to love my new tummy every day for the rest of my life...

wow, just 4 more sleeps and 4 more wake ups and then i'll be headed off to surgery....i deserve this. i earned this. i can't wait for this...