It's here...

Today is the big day.

I was awakened at 2 by a screeching cat and a low flying plane and then again at 4 by the same or possibly another cat and a low flying jet.
Couldn't fall back asleep of course. Thinking about today and then just chatting with mike while laying in bed.

I just went and snuggled with nick for a few minutes and he woke up to go pee. I love snuggling with my boy. He told me on the way to the bathroom that he was sorry I was going to be hurting after my surgery. Such a sweet thing. I assured him that I'd be fine and that the worst part would be not being able to lay with them in their beds for a couple of weeks.

Not being able to snuggle with my kids is truly going to be the hardest part. I'm thinking about it and crying as I type. I love them so much and just pray that I am not putting myself at risk to improve my life and health and jeopardizing my life with them. That would be my only regret in life.

Gonna hop in the shower now and then snuggle with my emmadoodle after since she wakes up easier and I want to make sure she gets a little more sleep as I'm already waking them up earlier than usual for grampa to do the morning routine and bring them to school after we leave at 7.

This is it.

At 745 we arrive and meet the anesthesiologist. Surgery should start right after 8. Should be home and resting by 1.

So glad I decided to let the kids go with Kameron.

Start off right and get my rest right from the start and hopefully the rest just falls into place and the healing is quick.